Ok, I know I have a lot to be thankful for...but...I feel like I'm going crazy! It seems that every day passes, the boys are acting up worse and worse. Some days are admittedly better than others but if I make it to Sunday without strangling Grant, it'll be a flippin miracle. I love the boy more than anything but he's basically decided that I'm not worthy of respect any more. I don't know if it's the age or what but if I tell him something, it goes in one ear and out the other and he totally ignores me. Which sets the precedent for Clay. In any case, I've found that 2 glasses of Pinot Noir fixes it quite nicely. After that, I just don't care what they do, if they fight til they pull each other's hair out or til they're both black and blue. Castle Rock. $12. Great fix.
The better thing is that 2 glasses are only 3.5 Weight Watcher points. So instead of drinking my milk like I'm supposed to, I just drink and pass out in bed. Well not really, but it sure makes going to sleep a lot easier.
On that note, I'm down to 121.4 in the Chub Club. Not too shabby. It's so strange though. When people ask me what size I'm in, sometimes, I lie up. I'd rather just NOT hear, "How much more do you plan on losing?" "Are you starving yourself?" Blah Blah Blah...trust me, I'm nowhere NEAR anorexic. In fact, I'm smack dab in the middle of the recommended weight for my age and height so technically, I could still lose 10 lbs and be healthy. Do I plan on that? Probably not but I'd rather not hear the flak. It's like you're damned if you do and damned if you don't. And believe me, I don't look like I'm about to blow away either. Plus, I need toning something awful. So that's my next goal since I'm strangely empty now that I've hit a weight that I feel comfortable at. If I have goals while he's gone, I think it'll make this deployment faster and easier. So I'll be fit for a year..HA!!
Anyway, Sunday is the big day. We get to see Mike again for 4 whole days. I'm so anxious. Looking forward to and dreading this at the same time. Of course, I'm ecstatic to see him again but so dreading the good bye. This time is going to be worse than last time.
- We won't see him til God knows when.
- I have to bring the boys to the farewell deal.
- I have to bring them home with me
- If I have an anxiety attack, I have no one to help me out
- He's not going off to some peaceful place this time. It's IRAQ, for God's sake.
So this week, I'm a little nutty. At least work stress is minimal at this point in time. I have some boring busy work but it is chargeable and for that I'm grateful.
Ok, off to finish up around the house and hit the hay. I still have 1 glass of wine left to down :)